Month 12 the most denial filled bitter sweet month so far. Going into this I was so sure that I would be done within the year. I was healing so well and more and more skin was clear, then BAM neck is oozing and cracking, arms are red sleeves again, stomach is patchy again, and legs are getting worse. My neck was the worst the ooze smell was unbearable and I had no mobility whatsoever. At home I tied a silky robe around my neck and prayed that it would not stick and have to be ripped off and at work I moved like a robot, unable to move my head or extend my arms. Then comes Dec 9, my one year anniversary which was spend being depressed and discouraged. I do not know what I would do without the kind words and support of the ITSAN community, their willingness to give encouragement over and over is what got me through the day.
Notice how I look awkward and creepy I'm this picture, that would be because we had just run a 5k and my skin was not happy about it. (Please ignore thre very classy orange sports bra showing through my shirt)
12/2/13 Day 359
12/3/13 Day 360
12/9/13 day 366 1 Year Topical steroid free!
Song of the week: "Skinny Love" cover by Gavin Mikhail. "Come on skinny love just last the year, pour a little salt, we were never here...Come on skinny love what happened here? Suckle on the hope in light brassieres my my my my my my my my, Sullen load is full slow on the spit. And I told you to be patient and I told you to be fine, and I told you to be balanced and I told you to be kind"
It is no secret that I have a very deep and personal relationship with God. I have pushed and resisted that relationship this past year through all the bullshit I have had to go through living with Herpes but once again, God is bigger than my stubbornness and broke through that outbreak cold sore and all I had Genital Herpes. For me personally, hearing over and over how I am not good enough has really invaded my mind in the worst way possible. I completely shut down and I was just waking up like is this how life going to end this temporary herpes outbreak “fuck everybody with herpes if you know what I mean” but let's be honest here...It is a cowardly to say no to herbal medicine. It is fear based. And it is dishonest to what my heart wants. Don't build a wall around yourself because you are afraid of herbals made or taking a bold step especially when it's come to health issues and getting cure. So many young men/ women tell me over and over that Dr Itua is going to scam me but I give him a try to today I feel like no one will ever convince me about herbal medicine I accept Dr Itua herbal medicine because it's cure my herpes just two weeks of drinking it and i have been living for a year and months now I experience outbreak no more, You can contact him if you need his herbal medicine for any such diseases like,HIV,Epilepsy Infertility, Herpes, Hepatitis, Schizophrenia,Cancer,Fibromyalgia,Fluoroquinolone Fibrodysplasia Ossificans Progressiva.Dupuytren's disease,Desmoplastic,Diabetes ,Coeliac disease,Cerebral Amyloid Angiopathy,Hpv,Weak Erection,Wart Remover. Ataxia,Arthritis,Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis,Alzheimer's disease,Adrenocortical carcinoma.Asthma,Allergic, Wart Remover,Love Spell,. Email..drituaherbalcenter@gmail.com then what's app.+2348149277967.... My advice to any sick men/women out there is simple... Be Always an open book. Be gut wrenching honest about yourself, your situation, and what you are all about. Don't hold anything back. Holding back will get you nowhere...maybe a one way ticket to lonelyville and that is NOT somewhere you want to be. So my final truth...and I'm just starting to grasp this one..
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